Sunday, October 29, 2017

Momma No Longer Has Things Under Control

Winter 1991...I'm a new mom.  My baby has a high fever and has not slept in several nights.  My husband is a new doc doing his residency so he has not slept in several months!   The rest of my family is two hours away.

The baby finally goes down for a nap so, naturally, I decide to do some laundry.  The machines are on the second floor of the townhouse.  I start the washer,  sit down to rest up, when I hear loud banging and cracking sounds.  The washing machine is leaking down into the dining room--the ceiling is folding--there's a mess everywhere.

I grab the baby, his clothes, his meds, and camp out near the front door while I call plumbers.  Now remember, there is no internet or cell phone.  I have only been in this sublet for several months and am new to the area. I find a plumber, in the yellow pages, who hears the desperation in my voice and promises to head right over.

In the meantime, hubby calls to check on the baby.  When I tell him all is well, but the second floor laundry room is now on the first floor, in the dining room, he says he's coming right home, of course. I tell him not to worry, I had it under control.

Fast forward to present day, Fall 2017.  We are ending week one of Oral Immune Therapy (OIT) which is a desensitization for food allergies, (peanuts in this case), and thankfully, it has been an uneventful week!
However, at the start of the week, when it was time to mix a minuscule amount of peanut flour into a teaspoon of water, and then add some pudding, I was literally shaking.  Of course, the powder went flying on the first try, the pudding is the next to go on round two.  Round three my 14 year old son takes over and mixes his own dose.  Yup, I'm keeping a calm exterior all right.  Let's just say, intentionally giving my son the equivalent of poison to his system, and yup, I no longer have
it under control....


Monday, October 23, 2017

Momma's Having a Moment

Many years ago, (22 to be exact), I experienced one of those heart stopping, (in a bad way), moments. It was a bright and beautiful winter day, so I bundled up my little cherubs to go to the market.  I parked the car and started taking them out of their car seats, when I heard what I thought were gun shots. Petrified, I threw them back into the car and (dramatically) covered them with my body to protect them.  I am too embarrassed to tell you what the sounds actually were.  Thankfully, they were not gunshots.  

Fast forward 22 years and we are starting an equally terrifying journey called OIT with our teenaged son.  He has a life threatening food allergy and we have taken the plunge to "immunize" him from accidental exposure and fatal reactions.  I am staying positive and outwardly calm so that he does not feel any more anxiety then I'm sure he already does.  I did however, dream that I spilled the dose and shielded him with my body from all the peanut powder as it spread throughout the room.


It is truly a surreal experience feeding him something that we have strictly and vigorously avoided since his diagnosis, so my dream is justified....the gunshots however, may have been a figment of my very active imagination! To be fair, I did live in an apartment building filled with  FBI agents and their spouses when I was pregnant with my second son.  Their stories had me absolutely, over the top terrified of walking out the door with my toddler!!

Parenting truly runs the gamut from joyous to terrifying!
Good luck in your journey!

This is how my son "decorated" his box of doses.