Momma's Having a Moment

Many years ago, (22 to be exact), I experienced one of those heart stopping, (in a bad way), moments. It was a bright and beautiful winter day, so I bundled up my little cherubs to go to the market.  I parked the car and started taking them out of their car seats, when I heard what I thought were gun shots. Petrified, I threw them back into the car and (dramatically) covered them with my body to protect them.  I am too embarrassed to tell you what the sounds actually were.  Thankfully, they were not gunshots.  

Fast forward 22 years and we are starting an equally terrifying journey called OIT with our teenaged son.  He has a life threatening food allergy and we have taken the plunge to "immunize" him from accidental exposure and fatal reactions.  I am staying positive and outwardly calm so that he does not feel any more anxiety then I'm sure he already does.  I did however, dream that I spilled the dose and shielded him with my body from all the peanut powder as it spread throughout the room.

It is truly a surreal experience feeding him something that we have strictly and vigorously avoided since his diagnosis, so my dream is justified....the gunshots however, may have been a figment of my very active imagination! To be fair, I did live in an apartment building filled with  FBI agents and their spouses when I was pregnant with my second son.  Their stories had me absolutely, over the top terrified of walking out the door with my toddler!!

Parenting truly runs the gamut from joyous to terrifying!
Good luck in your journey!

This is how my son "decorated" his box of doses.